Religion isn’t something I usually write or talk about, but I’ve been thinking a lot about it recently. I am not so sure as to why, but it’s certainly been on my mind.
Technically, being extremely technical at that, I look at myself as a Christian. I believe in god, and I believe that most things happen for a reason, and I do occasionally (usually if a sports team I follow is on the verge of losing) find myself praying to the man upstairs for his help and guidance.
I don’t often go to church, I guess if I actually “belonged” to a certain church group then I would probably make the time to go along, but I wouldn’t say that I have a certain religious place that I attend on a regular basis.
Guess I am saying that I am thinking about finding a place where I can just be at one with god.
I’ve always been religious in my own little way, and honestly for a lot of reasons I think that is how it should be. I don’t like the notion of practicing something, especially religion, simply because you feel as if you have to. Because everybody is different, we all have our views on things, and just because a viewpoint may differ from that of yours, doesn’t make the other person wrong exactly, just different.
Because honestly, do you know the answers to everything? Are those answers always the right ones?
They may be right to you, and you may know the answers to all the things that interest you, but the world is a constantly changing place and while keeping your personal beliefs and values, we shouldn’t try and force our views onto other people, even though we are all guilty of trying this at times in our life.
There is a time and a place for everything right?
I am still in the process of making up my mind, but I am thinking about maybe joining a church of some description.
I am not sure if it is for me or not, because I don’t want to give up a lot of things, but I just feel that at this point in my life, I would like to be alongside god a little more often than usual, the reasons for this I am unsure of. I think a lot of people around me would say church isn’t for me, but what I really have in mind isn’t so much the typical get up on a Sunday and go to church for a few hours, but more just go there on occasion and be alone with god, really to thank him for the strength given to me to keep fighting this disability more than anything.
Because honestly, my health is good at the moment, but I know that I have the fight of my life coming at some point in the future, and I really want to be a little closer to whatever is up in that sky, to make sense of it all really.
What I am learning more and more is that this disability never makes sense. There has been so much lose recently, and by loss I mean the deaths of so many close friends of mine who have Muscular Dystrophy, and I just want to know why this had to happen, even though the answers are pretty clear enough in themselves.
I guess, maybe I am looking for a way to be closer to those mates of mine that I have lost. I miss them terribly.
I see it like this, everything happens for a reason, and so much good has happened to me recently, what with the new house, new life, and an amazing girlfriend to go along with it, I just want to be able to be closer and thank whatever power is behind all this good stuff happening right now.